Well, the hour is nearly upon me when I walk back into the office and invite them to reapply all the pressure that contributed to me crashing noisily and destructively off the rails this time around. I've been stable for just over a week and my wife thinks I'm going back to work too soon but what else is there to do, I wonder. I'm okay at the moment - will another week or two or three of equilibrium do anything to make me more resilient? I survived a weekend that was littered with potential triggers, I'm tolerating my meds okay, I'm managing a few basic social interactions now and then...I think it's time to give the whole work thing a shot. I don't want to, though. My job sucks. But then, doesn't everybody's? Oh well...it's been a while since I last posted anything on here, real life and a tangible decrease in creativity the blame for which I lay squarely at the door of my medication have kind of got in the way - and having felt a lot more stable than of late, the motivation to write's been kind of missing. But I'm sure that as from tomorrow my levels of angst and desperation will increase and I'll be back in hypergraphialand again...
